hi guys. i got help, and so i’m either going to delete this tumblr, or make it a recovery blog, not sure yet. i hope you lovelies can recover too. xx
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Anonymous asked: I love you. You're beautiful.. please, please.. you're perfect. Probably the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen. I hate seeing you suffer.. Talk to me. What's wrong? How did this start? I love you babe, stay strong, please <3
no, no, no, lovely, all the terrible things of this world are perfect compared to me. everything’s wrong and i don’t even know when anything started. thanks for the love, but i think you should direct it to something more deserving xx
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Long time no post. I was put in a mental facility for threatening suicide and cutting. Getting put there made me want to cut more.
They were evaluating me and asked questions like, “Have you ever done unhealthy things in order to lose weight?” I lied, thank you. I’m not giving this up.
- School: where do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- me: dead, in hospital, dead, in a psychiatric ward .... oh um work.
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>:(
i gained so much in just the past 3-4 weeks because i tried to be a normal teenage girl
i don’t want to recover anymore. i will lose it all again and more.
my bf called me nice, smart, and pretty just now
nice: because i leave all my anger and annoyances to take out on myself when i’m alone
smart: because i rock at counting up all the calories after i binge
pretty: because he’s blind
he got me another pillowpet for my birthday :] i cried into it just now, i don’t deserve anything
In 10 years I’m going to look back on my teenage years, you know what I’m going to remember?
Bathrooms I threw up in, meals I missed out on, not eating because I was embarrassed, workouts I dragged myself through, spending all my money on diet pills, nearly passing out in front of people because I didn’t eat, being so fucking hungry and tired that I wanted to die, not going out ever because I felt disgusting and huge.
childhood years
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